|Thank you to the amazing staff at Portland Veterinary Specialists|
Dr. Noble, sitting on the floor with us, asked me if I was ready. No. I'll never be ready... But looking down at my sweet girl... seeing her eyes dull, her smile gone, her tail motionless.... She was already gone. I had to let her go - I was her best friend after all - I had to unlatch her leash one last time, and let her run free. I nodded to Dr. Noble, and she gently rolled back the release on the drip line, and pushed a clear fluid through the IV. I said good bye to my Destiny... She never broke her loving gaze at me as she slipped away... my hand felt the last rise and fall of her chest... my eyes were the last eyes she looked into - my words were the last ones she heard... and I made her a promise... Our adventures would live on. I promise.
After a long time... Dr. Noble and MyHoney helped me up... and I left Destiny resting in eternal slumber, on the soft dog bed on the clinics floor. No more needles. No more medicine. No more IV's. No more pain. I walked out of the clinic with her empty collar in my hand. No white shadow. No "load up little Pup!" as we approached my truck. No singing along to the radio inserting her name in the songs and glancing in the rear view to see her smiling in amusement of hearing her name. Just... nothing. My Destiny was gone. She wasn't there to reassure me any more.
Silently, on the way home, I replayed my last words to her - "Our Adventures will live on..." and decided she will return to the mountains and dance amongst the lupines. She should be where butterflies flutter and flit on the breeze and land on daisy blossoms that bend and sway. She deserves to be where the air is so permeated with the scent of sweet pine its intoxicating. She belongs where the loons will sing her lullabies every night. I will take you back to where we were the happiest together - I promise. I promise.
Paradise is Here, Paradise is Now..... Even if you don't realize it yet.